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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">This song, as you probably remember, is sung by Melissa Manchester. I've learned on many occasions that it's the best thing to do with those who don't share my world of Rheumatoid Arthritis or Bipolar Disorder. It's an unspoken rule in my subconscience now.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">When people ask how I'm doing and keep walking, <em>if they are repeat offenders</em>, I grab them and say: "you asked, so here it is" (chuckle). The dominant form of BP disorder that I have is the depressive and rapid cycling episodes.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">Due to flares, I've been blowing up like a goodyear blimp with painful swelling and deflating so rapidly I feel like I'm thrown to the ground. Morton's Neuroma makes the balls of my feet feel like I'm walking on hot boulders. So, the closest I'm going to get to pretty shoes is bejeweling my crocs (not on EVERY occasion, I have some shred of vanity left in me).</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia;"><span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">Many of you, my fellow RA fighters, know the rawness of this ravaging disease, so through this blog, I am extending empathy and gentle hugs to each and every one of you!. It's clear that one doesn't have to be diagnosed with an emotional illness to feel numb and vulnerable to the outside world.</span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;">Nowadays during this season I am often held hostage, forced to stay home and so I sing the blues to my computer via webcam. I'll share one with you - ironically it's entitled "Cry Me A River":</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: large;">Hello, my name is Candee. I am a wife, mother, minister and loyal friend to many. I am also a singer, humbled and truly grateful to my Creator for the gift of song. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: large;">This blog, however, is not really about singing songs to a melody but metaphorically singing to the tune of life's experiences. </span></div>
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<span style="color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: large;">Here's a bit about me:</span><br />
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<span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;"><em><span style="font-size: large;">I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder a little over 10 years ago.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I tried to tell anyone who would listen during my teen years that something in my brain wasn't wired right.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>My parents said I was being dramatic, my siblings got a kick out of me being the family clown, bouncing off the walls.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>My friends, however, emphatically said: "<strong>Oh no girlfriend, you don't FIX that, you RIDE it like the wind!"</strong><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></em></span></div>
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<span style="color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: large;"><em>......So I did....then....<strong>BAM</strong>! I ran into what felt like a wall of nails. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> Suddenly I woke up to</span> a nasty bout of depression that crippled me for a long time.</em></span></div>
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<span style="color: black; font-family: Arial;"><span style="font-size: large;">Due to the right cocktail of meds, I'm relatively back on my feet.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: large;">That's just one of three "significant others" in my life; added is my Husband of 28 years and Rheumatoid Arthritis. Ed keeps me grounded when RA and/or BP knocks me to the ground.</span></div>
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<span style="color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: large;">Blogging is one way I'll fight the "thorns in my flesh". I'm looking forward to harmonizing with you. </span><br />
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